Lucas
“Lucas: Sarah i just want you to know
Lucas: That i really really love you -.- nd ur super weird
Lucas: Which makes me love you more.”
Honestly, I wouldn’ t be the person I am today without him. In this past year i’ve grown up with him, talked to him everyday, loved him, i’ve just been with him. He’s all mine and i’m all his <3
Who you ask? Well, his name is Lucas Jameson, to start off with, and I couldn’t ask for any better of a guy. We’ve been together since August 18th, 2009, and it’s just been absolutely wonderful. We actually met on the game, World of Warcraft, and yeah yeah, “omg nerds, and you met over the…..INTERNET?!” Gasp, yes we did, and even though I never expected a relationship to form from that game, I am perfectly happy with my choice that I let it happen. We have so many good times together and I enjoy being with him so much. Whenever i’m talking to him, typing-wise, you can see me always type a smiley every other line at least, and when i’m talking to him, you can catch me smiling all the time. And when we’re away, i’m always thinking about him and missing him, and it makes me appreciate him more for the times that he’s there and chooses me instead of anyone else. That’s how happy he makes me ^^
Are we perfect? No…no…no. We’re not perfect. We have our ups and downs, and our downs, big and small, but in the end, everything is worth it cause he’s worth all my troubles <3
All in all, I love him to death and I only want the best for him. I could care less about any other person, and i’d devote every minute of my life to him if I could. So not only do I feel like i’ve won the lottery ticket with his name all over it, but moreover I feel like the luckiest girl ever for him to love me like he does.
And it’s like, to this day, I’m glad he’s with me. I’m changing, I’m growing up, and I’m glad he will still deal with me. It’s surprising how, such a guy can handle me, I’m like this crazy big weird snowball that keeps on rolling along and he help keeps me going on. I’m pretty thankful he’s stuck by my side through thick and thin and he’s just absolutely wonderful. You have no idea of what it’s like, with our relationship. It’s hard, we cannot physically touch eachother or see.
It’s amazing you know. We’ve gone through the puppy love stage. I believe we’re somewhere past the testing waters stage, but still in it. We have our fights and sometimes, we’ll barely hang on…yet we’re still here.
I remember when we’d pick out our future kids names, we’d forsee eachothers name as a married couple, and do all that fun stuff. We still do, and it’s still fun, and even if it is fun, I still do see it happening.
It’s like, we still have our future ahead of us, and I only want the best for him. I don’t exactly know what I’m trying to say, but I am positive that we’ll make it till the very end. Even though it’s been a year, honestly it’s been a great year and I couldn’t ask for any better of a guy that I call my boyfriend. I know, people will say, “only a year and you’re positive he’s the one, at such a young age?!” and really, all I say is yes, cause it’s as simple as that. Now, I’m not saying it’s simple to say yes, I’m saying, with all my thought put into it, with what we’ve been through, yes, he is my future, he’s my partner in crime that beats little 10 year old girls, he’s going to be my husband some day and there’s not another guy out there. He’s the one for me.
There’s only one word to describe him and it’s love. Yes I know, love is so easy to say, so easy to hear, but check this out: my love for him goes deep, into the pits as deep as the ocean. What we’ve gone through, put up with, dealt with, been with, felt, we did it together. You know, even though I’ve never seen him personally, I feel as close to him as if I did know him personally. And the emotions i get when i talk to him, I’ve never felt it with anyone else. I know it’s silly, but when I answer the phone, I make sure my “hello?” sounds good. That’s why in the beginning when we started talking on the phone, I sometimes answered the phone with “yeah?” because my hellos were not perfected. And when we talk, I still get butterflies. Then I start twisting my hair, and I always move around and get excited like I’m talking to a crush that I’ve had on a guy for a long time, but the great thing is, he is my crush. I remember my first time talking to him on the phone. It was nerve-racking, I didn’t want to sound nervous at all, but the truth was that I was shaking and my hands got sweaty and my voice trembled when I spoke. (now it doesn’t and I’m glad I got that out of the way.) And then, when we have to hang up, its the hardest part for me. I always remind him that I love him, that I’ll miss him, that I hope he has a great sleep, and I can’t wait till I talk to him the next day. After that is when I stall and talk about something random just to hear his voice a few more seconds before we have to say goodnight again. And you know, we do have fights and arguments. We are not a perfect couple. And at times where, I cry and yell, raise my voice, have an attitude, as much as I want to hang up, I would not dare to. As angry as he gets me, I can still say I love you on the spot and mean it. Then I’d take a chill pill and realize that being angry isn’t going to solve anything. Under no circumstances would I not say it. Why? Cause i do love him, and i would let him know every chance i get. He deserves it. He deserves everything i have, cause he’s worth it all, every pretty little penny. He’s the one that makes sure I’m happy, the one that keeps me company when I’m lonely, the one that would go out of his way to do something special for me if it was that important. He’s the one that i would spend every moment of my life with if i could. He’s the one I call everyday to hear him greet me and make a new day a better one than the day before. He’s the reason I’m able to sleep at night, the reason I’m drawing hearts on every piece of paper i get. He’s the reason I engrave his name into everything. Hes the reason why I’m happy, the reason why i dream of scenarios with him. He’s the reason why I daydream so much. He’s the reason why I can tell my future’s going to be so so bright. He’s every reason, and all. Having the want to love this boy is as great as having the world all to myself. He’s the reason why they call it “love,” and that’s what love is.
Lucas, I really do love you so much and I want you to know that. I appreciate that you’re still with me through everything we’ve been through. You just make my life a whole lot better and I could not ask for any better, cause you’re the best and you’re perfect for me <3
He’ll always be my cutie pie, my baby, my babynoodle, my key lime pie, my goshiesface, my everything <3
“Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being “in love” which any of us can convince ourselves we are.” — Captain Corelli’s Mandolin
